Jessica’s blog

Not for me. For my sister-in-law who just adopted a wee one a few weeks ago. They're out visiting from Michigan so her mom is throwing her a shower. I've been in charge of the games and I'm picking up cake and balloons.

Caleb is adorable. It makes me excited to think that in just 7 more months we'll have a new wee one of our own. It also scares the hell outta me...the 24/7 attention that they need. Where in the hell will I find 24 hours a day? I barely have an hour now to take a shower and pee in the morning and then I'm going till I pass out on the couch. It's all pretty overwhelming but I'm enjoying the little dude and then will develop a plan once all the chaos of having family in town brings is over.

Speaking of showers...I actually came home from work, took a long shower, picked out clothes (rather than fumbled in the dark for them), and did my make up and jewelry. It has been MONTHS since I've worn jewelry. I need to spend more time on myself but how? Again, where does this mysterious extra time come from?

Sigh.

I could use a snack and a nap. This getting pretty thing is rough. LOL

What a day.

I discussed Saturday with the boss man and it was decided I did not have to be at work for all 12 hours. Setting them up and getting them going was enough. This means I'll be out by 10am or so. Awesome news since I get to see my new nephew this weekend. I want as much time with him as possible...which means I have to fight off this cold.

That's right. I'm achey, sneezy, throat scratchy, and all around feeling crappy. No surprises since my mother-in-law has had it for weeks and so has many others at work. I can't afford being sick during finals week, work being so busy, and did I mention my new nephew is in town???? AHH!

Today work was insane. It started off with an email about a production run we messed up that had made it to the DC and even to customers. Nothing bad with the product, just short. So after investigating that mess I had a million other things to do. I felt behind all day long. I'm running around like crazy being the only supervisor this week. Builds character right?

Sure.

Ugh...still sick pretty much morning, noon, and night. I'm feeling like it is getting better but then I'm running to the bathroom all over again. Much of my research has been when this will end, even though with Nathan it never did. I'm praying for a normal time period when 12 weeks comes and we stop with the throwing up. I'm over it.

We told Nathan last night that we we're going to have another baby. We were going to wait till after 10 weeks but last night - out of nowhere - the kid says "Mommy, do you have a baby in your tummy?" When Mike and I wouldn't answer him he started screaming it. MOMMY, DO YOU HAVE A BABY IN YOUR TUMMY?!!?!!

When we decided to sit him down and tell him the truth that yes there was a baby in my tummy he immediately said I'M GOING TO HAVE A BABY SISTER! LOL. I explained we don't really know what they baby will be yet. He said he wants a brother but keeps calling the baby a she. Mike keeps correcting him saying he. I giggle. I showed him pictures of what the baby would look like in my belly at just 8 weeks. He asked if we were growing an ant. I told him no and then he said it looked like a baby chicken. What exactly is he learning in preschool anyways?

He's really excited and when he remembers about it he's all smiles and giggles. I think once baby Caleb gets here for "Christmas" next week with Mike's family then it will sink in that we're going to have a baby at our house too!

The Very Cranky Bear

Just a few weeks ago my little preschooler came home with his first Scholastic sheet and order form. I could remember being so excited about ordering books when I was in school that I HAD to give in and buy a few for Nate. I decided to let him pick out some and he circled everything. So, we went with The Very Cranky Bear by Nick Bland and the "If You Give a Mouse A Cookie" set. He'll get the set for Christmas but I let him have the The Very Crank Bear now.

This book is AWESOME. I just read it to my 4 year old dude and he LOVED it. Daddy even played out the story and acted as the VERY CRANKY BEAR himself. It was a good time. I loved the illustrations and the story was fun. Highly recommend it for other little dudes and dudettes :)

Well, I should be doing school work. Yes. I should be.

However, what I really want to do is wrap up in a blanket on the couch and cuddle with the little dude.

Guess which one I'm going to do? Sorry school work...we still have tomorrow.

I got a call from my nurse today telling me in so many words to get my butt in and get my dose of the H1N1 vaccine. I'm not a person who worries a lot about things happening to her but my husband has been scared crapless that I was going to come down with Swine Flu and die. Apprently he heard that 28% of pregnant women with H1N1 died. Where he got this information? Who knows. How many paregnant women have actually gotten H1N1...no clue. However, nothing really scares my husband either so when he freaked out about this I knew I'd have to wiggle my way into getting one of these vaccines that seem to be in such high demand.

Good news - doctor called me and told me to get my butt in. She said they had only received so many and that pregnant women were first on the list. This sorta confirmed to me that something my husband had been saying might be true so I got in ASAP.

I've been told to expect mild to severe headache and muscle aches. Great. That will go along perfectly with "morning" sickness and fatigue. At least I wont be dead. Dead would be bad.

I do not remember being this sick with Nathan. I remember "morning" sickness all day long but not as strong or as ALL DAY as this is. Basically from the time I wake up to the time I sleep I have to move very cautiously to not puke on people. Sometimes I think "wow, it has been a whole hour since I threw up!" Those are very exciting times. Then, minutes later, I'm back in the bathroom. Weird part is, even talking a lot starts it up. I have been trying to keep quiet so that I don't gag as much. It's pretty funny.

I actually had someone tell me the other day "You look like shit". This person knows that I'm pregnant. I wanted to flip her off and say some nasty things but I pulled off a laugh and told her "Thanks" in a very sarcastic tone. Sometimes I can't believe what people will say.

I'm currently watching a show that is scaring the crap out of me. It's about morbidly obese women who are pregnant. Now, I'm not 300 pounds or nothing but significantly overweight for sure. I've taken a lot of precautions in these first weeks to eat healthy and keep fit (as much as possible when you're heaving all over the place and can't seem to move faster than a snail 90 percent of the time) but it still all scares me. I just really want a healthy pregnancy. I should not be watching shows like this. They're not good for my mental health.

Ready for the week to be over. I just want to sleep for a few weeks :) Hopefully this beginning stuff ends in a few weeks and the more fun part of pregnancy can start :)

Chocolate ice cream has the ability to make everything better. I was doing school - getting frustrated - and started to think...wow, comfort food would be a great idea. I suddenly rememberd the chocolate ice cream that I didn't eat a few days ago because of my tummy woes. Now, I'm a little better and happily enjoying this lovely treat.

Week 6-10 is a critical point in this pregnancy for me. After week 10 I'll feel a little better about breathing easy. Too bad that's a whole month away. It's going to be a lot of anxiety.

I'm still feeling sick in the morning and at night - good sign. Tonight I'm feeling a little cramping, normal, and I'm EXHAUSTED. I could have gone to bed the second I got home if it had been alright with Mike. It wasn't. Dinner to be made and then dishes to be washed. Laundry to do...blah blah blah. Someday I'm going to need a break more than I do now so I'll cash those freebees in later.

Work has been very hard to get through. I have about 3 hours of energy which kicks in from 9-12. Too bad one of those hours is lunch!

I cannot even begin to explain how far behind I am in school right. Let's just say I'll be spending the next 4 weeks making up for my lack of motivation this week. Dang hormones! Seriously dragging my butt behind me after work.

Speaking of work...that place is insane.

I need some sleep.